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Am I really convinced to have my vhf shack? A really weird question to ask. I've been a licensed ham for four years now and up to now I still hanging with the question of "is it time for me to put up my station?" I already got all I need but I am missing one important factor, and that is "will". I've been fascinated about radios since high school but too afraid that it might keep me grounded at home.

You got me running on sunshine

Ain't no rain getting in my way

I must be running on sunshine