The delay continues...

Just last Sunday I confirmed to myself that I will purchase my CP22E antenna on Saturday and to set up my station on the following week. But just this afternoon I compromised myself to accompany Simonette time to buy her shoes and some other stuff for the hike/camp next month. Aside from the delay it would cause also opens the possibility that I might also lost my budget for it if I enter an outdoor shop (",) I just wish my calculations won't miss! But at the same time I want to be prepared for the hike/camp, I've been longing for it for more than two years now.

Lost

I'm trying to see how I could post my old drafts here but I guess they'll not make any difference now. Last week I scanned the drive C hoping that i could make the server run faster by deleting old and unused files/programs and I found a lot of my journals saved in different locations and weird filenames, they have been my offline blogs in different formats: word, notepad, html and even swf if I have a lot of time. This could be my favorite past time, reading and drowning myself with old notes and journals; looking back on how time has passed makes me stronger and sometimes weaker, there are just a lot of things which I wish could have been better. But who knows the right combination? All we could do is risk and take chances and hope that what we've chosen is the best one, and if is't not be content and believe that it'll soon come... They sometimes make me dream they sometimes make me stop... Lost and away.

block 22

My last class picture.

Classmates, san na kayo?

They tried to explain me...

I received an e-mail this morning and it's about how people behave according to their birth months. I am not fond of reading this kinds of stuffs but I liked this one. More than a year ago a new friend of mine, a coteacher introduced to me this kind of interest in reading such materials: explaining attitudes basing from the stars, birth year, zodiac and numbers. From then on I take some time to scan some articles about "me" and "someone" close to me or someone I wish to be closed with. Now here's something about "me".

December: This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

Not farther back....

"Lao, 3 times?" I can hear these words from behind, a tutee asking her tutor how many times should she repeat writing the lessons. A short poem comes into my mind: Where dose love goes when it dies? If heart is the place where it came from, then where does it go when it dies? Back to the heart where it came from or turn into tears in the eyes? We recited this poem while studying Chinese education back in 3rd college. I also remeber my classes in Tibetan White Crane, Sifu would always ask us to do a certain form 10 times. Sometimes we also ask, "Si, 5 times lang?". Then Si would yell again "do that 10 times"!Repeatition is part of their secret: if you keep doing things (specially if you understand them) you'll eventually do them automatically with a heart. And that's how I was able to perfect my Mantis, I learned the routine by doing it over and over.