my personal retreat

I got my fifth climb with Erick last weekend and I think I'm turning into a freelance mountaineer. I really don't like that idea but my group is too busy with the other concerns of the organization that I have to climb with new faces just to give in to my question-and-answer-portion with mother nature. Because I need this weekend to retreat. This is my way of assessing and re-assessing myself about my life, my dreams and the path I wish to travel, I need to see how far I've gone, I need to know how far I've gone off. I've been chasing a number of things as part of my personal legends but do they really matter? Would they really matter if I could catch them?