a rough update

I am so positive with all that I wish to have and achieve but there’s this one rock, one big rock blocking my way. Is it that I am not making a good turn to avoid it or go over it? Or is it telling me I have another call to respond to? Lately I have been contemplating too much about what I wish to be in the very soon future but never arrived at a good reason why I’m doing the things I am doing. Last week I had this chance to chat with our executive directress and after her learning about the things I’m busy with she seriously asked me to cut something off from my activities. I really am not bothered about her statement, well because I’m not letting her affect my life but for my friends who are present in that conversation I felt that they also wish to say the same thing.

What’s next? I see nothing yet. Maybe if I could go for a climb, the trees would answer. Maybe if I respond to a fire, the heat would tell me. Maybe if I teach the children of Baseco, their smiles will show me. Maybe if I could be back in the active list of the Ministry, I’ll get my prayer. Or maybe as I walk home tonight; a stranger will answer me, show me and give me my prayer. Believe me, I am not trying to be everything to everyone. I just want to be me.